Me and my Snickers

Thursday, January 30, 2014

Hooters Ranch Dressing Re ipe

Hooters Ranch Dressing 


1 cup mayonnaise
three/4 cup buttermilk
1/four cup sour cream
1/two teaspoon salt
1/two teaspoon black pepper
1/four teaspoon onion powder
1/four teaspoon garlic powder
1/8 teaspoon dried thyme 
1 tbsp finely chopped parsley

- Combine all ingredients in a bowl; whisk until totally mixed. 
- Cover and refrigerate for 2 hours before serving.

Paperwork, urine samples and bloodwork...OH MY!

Ok so I have totally neglected my blog for quite some time!  I have always had the best of intentions but things have been a bit crazy lately!  I have not only been recovering from a protruding disc causing sciatica but I have been having female problems too!  Today I went and got all of my preop paperwork and labs for my hysterectomy next Wednesday!  I will be having my  uterus, cervix and both ovaries removed after many years of pelvic pain from endometriosis and now a large fibroid and some cysts on my right ovary!  I have already had two exploratory laparoscopies to scrap that endo junk out so at almost 40 it is time to say goodbye to my child bearing years and parts!

I started off my day with a regular checkup with my primary care doctor for medication followup.  I then went on over to my gynecologist's office for some lovely paperwork and on to TMC for my preregistration, urine screening, blood tests and instructions for that day!  Good news is my labs were all pretty normal which is better than last time!  Also my surgery was moved up from 12:00 to 7:30 meaning I do not have to thirst to death nearly as long but my poor mom has to have me there at 5:30 in the morning!  She will happily take me but I know that was not the text she wanted to receive today!  I still have differing feelings about this hysterectomy thing on a daily and hourly basis.  I know it will be better for me and I can live pain-free in that area at least but the finality of losing my female parts and knowing that I will never have another child is a little heart breaking!  Nothing in my life has gone according to my teenage plans and dreams so I just have to thank the Lord above that unlike some women I at least got to know the pleasure of having one child.  I have not yet decided on the whole hormone treatment thing.  I still have some more reading and research to do on that subject.

I am amazed at how I have gotten such support and kind words from people that I barely know or do not even know outside of social media.  It feels great to have that support system in place with them and my boyfriend, my mom, my son, some of my close friends, etc.  This is a life changing event for me!  I turn 40 this year and I also say goodbye to major organs yet again!  Sometimes we get more support from those we barely know than those closest to us and I am just glad to have it no matter where or who it comes from because yes I am quite nervous and scared and every other emotion known to woman all in one!

I cannot wait to get away this weekend with my sweetheart to Austin and attend the Pink Zebra rally and let loose a little in preparation for this life event!  I hold everyone's prayers and kind words dear to my heart!  I also thank my family in Oklahoma City for my awesome slippers and my grabber that will help me grab things when I am oh so sore after surgery!!

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

Have some Pink Zebra at your wedding!

I have set forth goals for myself and one of those is to try each day or at least each week to focus on one area of one of my businesses.  Tonight I am focusing on my Pink Zebra business and how it can help those with an upcoming wedding.
I created this sign a while back.  It shows various ways our soy wax sprinkles can be used at your wedding.  I can give you much more information but this is the basics.  The candle bar was featured on TLC show "Four Weddings".  You put out cartons of our scents and candle kits we sell as well and your guests can create their own unique candle using any one or a combination of the scents your provide.  You can decorate this candle bar to match your wedding colors however you see fit.  Guests will love it as a great favor to remember your wedding day!  Sprinkles can be used in many other ways as shown here.  Contact me if you are interested in ordering sprinkles for your wedding or order your cartons from our website which will be back up and running on Thursday Jan 9.  We got a new system so it is being implemented as we speak :)


Candle Bar Prices

Princess Special!
$100
Includes:  
  • Choice of 9 Jars of Sprinkles
  • 12 Princess Candles and Wicks
    • Upgrade to Brandy and/or Martini for only $12
Bridal Special
$150
Includes:  
  • Choice of 3 Cartons of Sprinkles
  • 24 Princess Candles and Wicks
    • Upgrade to Brandy and/or Martini for only $25
Bridal Plus Special!
$250
Includes:  
  • Choice of 6 Cartons of Sprinkles
  • 48 Princess Candles and Wicks
    • Upgrade to Brandy and/or Martini for only $50
  • BONUS: 
    • Any Pink Zebra Item for FREE
    • 1 additional items 50% off 
Silver Special!
$500
Includes:  
  • Choice of 12 Cartons of Sprinkles
  • 102 Princess Candles and Wicks
    • Upgrade to Brandy and/or Martini for only $100
  • BONUS: 
    • Any 2 Pink Zebra items FREE!
    • up to 3 additional items 50% off
Gold Special!
$1000
Includes:
  • Choice of 25 Cartons of Sprinkles
  • 204 Princess Candles and Wicks
    • Upgrade to Brandy and/or Martini for only $200
  • BONUS
    • Any 5 items in the catalog FREE
    • up to 9 additional items for 50% off
    • Davis/Weber County - Utah Residents also get Consultant to set up/run/clean up the bar

Platinum Special!
$2000
Includes:
  • Choice of 50 Cartons of Sprinkles
  • 405 Princess Candles and Wicks
    • Upgrade to Brandy and/or Martini for only $400
  • BONUS
    • get any 10 Items in the catalog FREE!
    • Up to 18 additional items for 50% off!
    • Davis/Weber County - Utah Residents also get Consultant to set up/run/clean up the bar

Sunday, November 17, 2013

My new Pink Zebra business.



Well I have been really busy.  I went to a home party my cousin was having.  It was her launch party for her new business Pink Zebra.  Pink Zebra is a home fragrance company.  I looked it up before attending the party and then I really enjoyed the party and I have always been into candles and scents so I soon signed up.  I am loving it.  The quality of the products is phenomenal!  I am so excited about this business.  I am doing a big event in the DFW area in December and I have two open houses this week and I cannot wait to tell more people about my new business.



They are doing an excellent special on signing up this month.  This month is more than half over so don't miss out on this excellent special on starting your business.  The 100 pink dollars go in your PZ account the Monday after you sign up so it will be available to purchase business items or products to sell, for yourself, or for Christmas gifts!  Wow what a deal!  I will back you up and mentor you to succeed!  I will share any and all information I have with you to try to ensure your success!  You WILL love it!!!  


We have some awesome limited time offers and some new items.  Check me out if you have a minute!



www.pinkzebrahome.com/dyldylsmom
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Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Laid Up Again With My Nurse Dogs

I have been totally slacking on my blog posting! I had three teeth surgically extracted Monday and then still recovering from the whole gallbladder thing and trying to get all of my medical issues in line plus football season. I do have a list of blog ideas so I can be a more active blogger! For now this is how me and my furry boys roll. They are mom's little nurses :)

 

Saturday, August 31, 2013

Three Days Postoperative

Well here I am three days after my gallbladder surgery. The pain is getting better every day. It is mostly when moving and coughing and it's hard to get comfortable and sleep. I have not been eating much as I feel pretty nauseous. I had a malt the last two days and a pudding cup also yesterday. I'm mostly making sure I drink fluids for now! I took a shower yesterday which felt great but zapped all of my energy!

My son arrived yesterday so I am glad for that. We watched our favorite show together...Pretty Little Liars. We had two weeks of it and it was good but now waiting until October is the killer.

Today I'll be taking it easy while doing my normal walking around and may try to do a little of my contract work to prepare for working tomorrow night. Tonight we shall rent movies and I'm anxious to try some mashed potatoes in my diet. The furry boys are glad their Dylan is here but I have lost my nurse maids...they traded me in!

I will also say having this iPad mini at times like this has been much needed. I haven't felt like doing much but I have played the occasional game or two!

 

Thursday, August 29, 2013

Surgery Done and Gallbladder Gone

Well my surgery went well yesterday. The time had gotten changed to 9:30 so it ran a little later than we thought. I was very impressed with the care I received there at the old Wilson and Jones now owned by Presbyterian. I was taken in a nice little day surgery room to hang out in before. We had a TV and a nice recliner for my mom.

I called my son on FaceTime (video chat) and talked to him as he got dressed for school and brushed his teeth. I wanted to see his handsome face before my surgery. Just as I was hanging up the nurse came in for my lively IV and thought it was so cute that we were video chatting. She was very nice and another lady came in to draw blood and she was great too. An anesthesiologist came in to discuss things with us and he was very friendly.

 

We were moved to the surgical area some time before and mom got to come with me. Everyone in there was great as well. My anesthesiologist got changed but equally as nice. One of the nurses walked me to pee as I covered up my bare hiney. Gotta love the hospital gowns lol! They started my antibiotics and then he gave me my first shot of "margarita". I said I prefers daiquiris so he said it could be whatever I wanted...haha! They wheeled me to OR so I said bye to mom. Now my son had been concerned about the location of my incisions and the fact that there might be men in there who would see my boobs. Boy I have to tell him next time we talk that they were all men even the OR nurse I met before I went night night!

I woke up in recovery to two nurses talking to me and I could only half see them. She asked about my pain which at that point was throat from anesthesia, abdomen of course and back and shoulder about a 15 out of 10. She gave me a shot of pain medication and then another. I was in a lot of pain!

I was wheeled back to my day patient room when I got more stable. Mom met me in there. They asked about a drink and of course I was thirsty and my throat so dry and hurting so Sprite was a life saver. After a while I was asked to pee which as always I had no problem with that! They took my IV out and we went over my discharge instructions, medications and all of that. I was wheeled out to mom's car and getting in sucked a big one but laying don had been worse so I had already decided I would set up camp in the recliner for comfort and it would also help keep the furry boys away from my abdomen. We went through and got us a drink at McDonalds and I don't remember the drive home or even McDonald's just that I got a Sprite and I think I updated Facebook and my texts on the way.

I settled in at home after we dropped my prescriptions off. I settled in with some ice on my abdomen and messes around on the iPad while waiting for mom to get back with my Sonic happy hour Sprite, pudding and pain meds. I was half asleep when she arrived so I took my pain pills as she left and settled in for sleep. I was knocked out for about six hours. I woke up told mom I was okay, iced my abdomen, played on Facebook while watching TV, peed, let the dogs out, ate one banana pudding cup and took my pills and I was out again. This has been my routine. I am staying up a but longer this time trying to wait until mom gets back to town as I thought I had drinks but only one 7up is what my son and friends left me. I don't normally have that here but his fiends bought some for a cookout we had here. I thought I was set until I pulled this out and realized that was the only one...what turds!

 

My dogs have been good boys and have not gotten on my "boo boos". I showed them to them and keep doing it to help. They have been laying on my legs, feet and pelvic area and especially Bandit. They know something's is wrong and I'm sick so they are being protective.

 

My pain is still pretty bad and getting up and down, turning or moving when resting is still very painful. I'm using a pillow to help protect when I get up and down. It really hurts to cough but they said to try to cough a lot so you don't get pneumonia. My throat still really hurts and is dry which they said is from anesthesia. I know each day it will get better. It is not a lot better today but a little bit and I tried to walk a but more today like it said. I'm just glad to have it done and hopefully be able to eat better now! That will make it all worth it and my son comes tomorrow to Monday. I cannot wait! We have to watch the last two weeks of Pretty Little Liars. He is so sweet last night he said he wished he was here to help take care of me. I sure love him!

 

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Tomorrow We Say Farewell to the Sounds of Kenny Chesney

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Well tomorrow is the day I say goodbye to my gallbladder.  Yep that is right it has been a good 39 years but we must part ways.  It developed stones and started hurting me terribly so I must let it go.  To anyone who has never had this or known someone who has it is one of the worst pains ever when you have an “attack”.  As for me I have had what are two serious attacks that made me double over, curl up in a ball and wish for it to stop or to put me out of my misery.  It has left me nauseous pretty much constantly for the last few weeks and I have had a few minor to moderate attacks.  The severe ones feel like chest pain that radiates to your back and even shoulder and I do not wish it on anyone.  The others are similar but not nearly as bad just different levels of pain.  I have had a bloated feeling, gas and heartburn type pains as well.  I have not had a surgery in some time and now that I am older I am a little scared but I know it is something that must be done.  As long as I get to talk to my son on Facetime and see his handsome face in the morning I will be just fine I know. 
My doctor will play music of your choice if you like so I request country and preferably Kenny Chesney and Old Blue Chair as that is my favorite “go to” relaxation song.  I would love to go under to something relaxing like that and not the voices of doctors and nurses.  Maybe I will even hallucinate that he is there with me…bahahaha! 
I went for my preoperative paperwork, testing, and all of that good stuff yesterday.  They do this by appointment now at my hospital so I had my appointment for 10:30 which did not end up making sense because they seemed to still be calling people by the order they got there.  I guess it still helps control things but whatever!  So as I sat there tired as could be since I had been up all night working I just kept getting more and more irritated.  I was doing a lot of people watching.  I found a lady across from me who thought her bright orange lipstick was cool and I assure you it was not.  Bless her heart to each their own but it was not flattering and I just kept being drawn back to it for some reason I guess because it was so bright for her complexion and way out of style.  Anyway there were a lot of older couples and a few other singles.  One woman walked in with her overnight bag and my only thought was at least I was not the only one seemingly dealing with a medical issue without a spouse or significant other attached to their hip.
When I finally was pulled back there of course the first order of business was the money.  Well yes I just paid for an ultrasound let me plop out that $1500 that my insurance does not cover right here and now…How do you wanna take care of that?  Well I want you to set up payments!  Do I look like I carry that amount of money with me?  I mean my insurance is paying most of it and I just shelled out money for that ultrasound so really now.  We set up payments way high for me to make right now but I do what I gotta do and I will pay what I can.  Good thing is my deductible and my yearly tap have both been met so other than copays anything else I need will be taken care of no out of pocket.  Time to get the whole body done I say!  Thank goodness for my medical savings account although I did not want to spend it all right now as I have other medical issues going on like my teeth. 
The nurse that stuck me for blood was super nice and we talked about dogs which is one of my favorite things to talk about.  She had me take a pregnancy test to which I laughed at and said that unless a ghost came in the night there was no chance of that…hahaha!  I am all set to arrive at day surgery tomorrow morning at 7 and surgery at 8:30.  I will pack my overnight bag tonight just in case as they told me.  Got to make sure I have my phone and iPad chargers along with toothbrush, toothpaste, deodorant and all the other necessities.  My son got his phone back so I shall call him before my surgery to say good morning and see his handsome face on Facetime and I told him he can see my cute hospital gown.  He is thrilled to death about that…hahaha!  If I survive work tonight with nothing to drink after midnight I will be good to go.  When I get home begins another journey of keeping the furry boys off of me while I heal especially Mr. Bandit who thinks he weights a pound but really he weighs way more.  Farewell my gallbladder…it has been real!

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

What Has Happened to Big Brother?

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First let me say I have been a Big Brother fan since the first year.  This is the weirdest year I have ever seen.  I know that I am not alone in my thoughts on that at least as I have heard others say pretty near the same thing. 
Why do they keep voting unanimously?  This alone is driving me batty!  Why are one or two people controlling the house and nobody has their own ideas about anything?  I mean if everyone is in alliances do they not realize that to win somebody has to do something big?  At least this week finally two big players are on the block but this should have been done a long time ago.  I am still in shock from the Judd back door incident.  Maybe part of that is the fact that I think he is cute as a button but he was not the person to back door at that time. 
Helen is really getting on my last nerve.  She plays people and manipulates them and she needs to go.  I hate her messages to the outgoing house guests.  They make her look even more evil than she is.  Her crying over Alyssa is just ridiculous.  It is a game and good for you that you made a friend you could relate to but get over it you are there to win not be buddy buddy and worry about someone else.  Let her worry about her own self!  I mean it only put a bigger target on both of your backs by doing this.  I also think Alyssa saying if she is voted out she will not go to the jury.  That is part of the game and if you pay you should agree to do whatever the game says.  Everyone misses their family and you knew that from the get-go.  Of course I have been over both of them for a while now so POOF be gone!!!
As for Amanda wow!  Some may have said she is too good for McCrae but I see it the other way around.  She just is ridiculous with her running things and then her boo hooing over him not throwing this or that and her not winning things!  SHUT UP!!  I hate the way she talks to him and I hope he realizes this soon.  I hope they get her on the block soon to knock her down a notch if not get her completely out. 
I am also still enraged that they all got angry when Spencer fought for himself in the Power of Veto.  I mean he was on the block and they wanted him to throw it.  You are NEVER safe pawn or not and you should never even ask someone on the block to not fight and then get mad that they do.  Utterly ridiculous!!  I say good for him for not just doing what everyone else says to do. 
If they have another unanimous vote I think I may scream so loud you can hear it in the next town.  Tired of it and so OVER it!!!

They Are Cutting Me Open


Ok so I have not had surgery in probably at least 10 years or so.  I have had two colonoscopies but no cutting involved there.  I have also had one cystoscopy no cutting there either.  I was under anesthesia.  I have had two exploratory laparoscopies for my endometriosis and that is the surgery I refer to being around 10 years ago.
Now I had been having terrible bouts of chest, abdominal, radiating to back pain that left me doubled over and rolling in pain.  I had and am having continued nausea with small bouts of heartburn type pain here and there.  I was diagnosed with gallstones after having an ultrasound.  I visited with the surgeon last week who went over the surgical procedure of laparoscopic cholecystectomy (removal of the gallbladder).  I know laparoscopic is a way better choice than open and I know it is no big deal but still I am having some serious anxiety about this.  I type these kinds of reports and I have no idea if that is part of the issue or not but I keep picturing them cutting into me (even though the incisions will be small unless they convert to open).  I also fear the anesthesia.  I have anxiety so it is not a huge surprise but I do not know if it is my typing these reports about the incisions and all on a regular basis or if it is the fact that I am older now and have multiple medical problems and medications.  It is probably a combination of both.  I keep trying not to think about it but it is really freaking me out.  I mean one of my medications the doctor said to be sure to tell them I am on and I have read it can cause complications so I plan to stop taking it a few days before but still tell them I take it.  I don’t want anything to happen to me.  My son needs me and my furry boys do too.  They said they will play music for me in the operating room so I think some Kenny Chesney and “Old Blue Chair” is in order and some anxiety medication per IV.  I am a hot anxiety ridden mess and other things going on in my life are not helping me. 
I know I am a worry wart but it is part of the whole anxiety thing.  You image everything that can go wrong and picture everything happening and it is just not good.  I may need extra anxiety meds in my IV for reals!!!!

Monday, August 19, 2013

Ring Ring....Bark Bark

 
Realistic doorbells on TV I curse you...Bandit is trippin' and no matter how many times I keep saying "Its on TV, Its on TV" he is still pretty sure someone is here...Ahhhh my guard dog lol!!!
Yes Bandit is quite sure he is human!!

Customer Service This Day and Age



Ok so I have been meaning to blog for days and weeks now but life has kept me busy physically and mentally.  I have a lot of things I could talk about but some of them are better not said in this forum.  I will write a out the lack of good customer services these days.

A little bit of my background first is that I was in fast food for about a year and then in retail from associate to manager over a 9 year period so I know all about customer service.  As an associate I always tried to be friendly to the customers.  Now we all have our moments naturally and nobody is perfect but compared to many around our store had pretty good service.  Regardless of what our district managers seemed to think it is slim pickin' in this area sometimes for good workers who work hard and are the kind of friendly you want and need.  My assistant at that time would often walk around and see how other stores would treat us.  We found people on the phone, speaking only to each other, sitting on the counters saying nothing to us, etc.  This was all over 10 years ago when I left retail and I think these days it has only gotten worse.  I am not at all saying that every place is bad but overall it is hard to find anyone who cares at all about the customers and even can be down right nasty.  Now I must tell the worst story first as it was something that happened to my mom and I am still quite irritated by the whole thing.

My mom often takes my grandmother shopping and they were at a grocery store the next town over.  It is my understanding that she usually buys her stuff first and takes it to the car then comes back to help my grandmother.  She had bought some of the salad mix the other week that was on sale for $1.  Well she notice her receipt it did not ring up on sale so she got it and took it back in to get the correct price.  The lady at the return desk was not very nice stating that this was the wrong kind of salad mix and was not on sale.  She did not check or anything just said that and asked did she want to return it and my mom told her yes.  Now what this girl did next is what is horrible and unbelievable to me.  She told my mom that was a shame because they could not resell it.  She then opened the bag right in front of my mom and dumped in the trash in front of her and stated "look at this food you wasted".  Now I believe my words when I first heard this were "oh no she didn't" or maybe something even worse.  My mom just did not know what to do.  Now the thing is after this my grandmother went through the line and her salad mix rang up $1 for the same thing my mom just had.  My point is regardless of the price right or wrong what this girl did is totally despicable to me.  Little did this girl know that I know one of the managers of this store so I have told her about it and was assured that is not acceptable behavior at all.  I still am in shock at this happening.

While I was in this same store tattling on the girl with my grandmother we went to check out and they only had two clerks and were pretty busy.  Hey that happens!  The guy ringing us up was turtle slow and was talking about how he had all this stuff to do besides checking and they were so busy and only had two checkers and blah blah blah blah!  Ok well I would have like to have shown him a lesson in productivity and how to getter done but I didn't.  Also it is not appropriate to grip about your job you are working while you are working it in front of customers and speed it up mister!!

My last recent story is at the local taco joint here in town.  Now my son orders a crazy burrito that is bean burrito with no beans.  Yes you read that right.  He likes cheese and sauce only and I have tried it and it is actually quite good.  Anyway he has ordered it in at least three towns and it has often gotten a smile or giggle or a "what".  Well this girl was kind of rude on the speaker when she questioned us but I was like okay whatever.  We got up to the window and I knew the total was not enough so I started listing off what we ordered as she had not repeated it to us.  I only got to the second item and she said "oh" and rang up the meat burrito cutting me off.  I paid for all of that and then realized she also missed my bean burrito (normal WITH beans) so I waited as she was ignoring the window.  I then told her that she forgot that item too and we had not paid for it but needed it so if she could just ring me one up we would be good.  I was being my cheerful self even though I was irritated.  She was so rude.  She rang it up and took my money and then handed it to me never saying a word to me about thank you, have a good day, kiss my hiney, or nothing.  What has happened to people these days that they are just so rude and do not care at all how they treat people?

Saturday, August 3, 2013

New Chapter starts now

Ok so enough of all of my ramblings of the past and procrastinations.  I have toyed with blogging for quite some time and I have blogged some here and some in other places and I have decided to park my hiney here and stop all of this putting things off nonsense.

I have a lot I need and want to do with my life right now and this is only one piece of that puzzle.  I am often criticized (usually behind my back) about some of the things I post on Facebook.  Well I have always treated it like each post is sort of a mini blog.  Each one is a snippet of something going on physically or in my head. You see working at home can be a lonely thing sometimes.  This has especially gotten worse in the two years my son lived with his dad and I spend so much time alone.  I miss that social interaction and I have always reached out on Facebook.  Well as we all know some people judge us and seem to look for some reason to criticize us for whatever reasons.  I have discussed blogging with my counselor in the past and she thought it was a great idea and stated many of her clients do this.  I know I can journal but sometimes I just want to hear that someone found me funny, related to something I am going through, or just was interested enough to take the time to read whatever it is I said or look at whatever it is I may post.  People who love to sit back and criticize then that is their issue not mine.  It makes me feel better so here we go again.  

Now another thing I am working on is my health and fitness.  About two years ago I was in such a great place physically and mentally.  I still had a ways to go no doubt but I was getting there.  I was going to Zumba, Yoga, RIPPED, piloxing, etc.  I was trying this and that to see which ones I liked the most.  Now the first two are the two I stuck to.  I let life and some personal and medical problems just let all of that take a back seat and I am totally disgusted with myself.  I was in such a positive mental state as well enlisting in meditation and trying to be a positive, motivational being and now I seem to barely keep the energy to function and work and do the other stuff necessary in life.  You see I do have depression and anxiety issues and stress just makes all of that worse.  Not an excuse but just a reality for me.  I fight chronic medical issues every day and those are two of them that affect me physically and mentally.  I miss doing all of these exercises and I am ashamed of not eating right.  I have got to get that energy and bounce in my step back and sooner rather than later.  I will also add that I have a gym membership that has a gym with basics here and classes and basics 20 minutes away and I have Zumba, Dance, Fitness, etc games for XBOX and Wii so there is really no excuse for my lack of exercise other than energy and that is not a good excuse anymore and I have to stop using it.

My son has spent a lot of time here with me this summer and I am so grateful for that and yes he is planning to move back here with me.  He is very active.  He is growing up and I have to focus on me by still focusing on him of course but finding my own person outside of being his mom.  

I have lots of hobbies I plan to work on and hopefully share the outcomes on here.  Photography is my first love.  I now am getting into digital scrapbooking so I can do things with the pictures I take other than just using apps which I also love to do.  I want to eventually make my own graphics and start making jewelry first for myself and possibly selling it later on.  I need to act on some of my passions and find myself again and here is my first step by writing this saying all of this "out loud".  I need to hold myself accountable.  I am getting older and I am not happy with myself weight wise or health wise.  I want to be here to continue to watch my son with his activities and some day get married and have grandchildren for me.  I want to date again and find someone to spend life outside of motherhood with but right now I am not self confident at all and I need that so I can show everyone who I really am and not this version of me that is too tired to do anything and feels sick and tired all of the time and depressed about who she is.  I am crossing my fingers and holding myself accountable so let's roll...

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Progress

Well things are on track right now and hopefully they will stay that way.  Dylan and I are doing well.  His last visit was great.  No rages this time.  Lots of good hugs! 

Keith and I had broken up but we are now going to try to talk things through and work them out.  I have been sticking to exercising either here at home or my classes.  I tried a new class last night.  We had a launch party for R.I.P.P.E.D. and it was intense but burns a lot of calories.  It was very crowded in there but I was dripping with sweat and then went into the cold air so brrrr but that is a good sign that it was a good workout.  I was so tired that I finally slept well with no night sweats. 

I am reading a wonderful book “In The Meantime” and I cannot wait to finish it and start on another one of her books.  It is one of those I cannot put down but have to make myself.  I wanted to read in it last night but I was just way too tired.  I talked to Dylan and went straight to sleep.  They changed all of our classes up for the new year so Yoga is now split into stretch yoga and Hatha Yoga so tonight I am going to try Hatha Yoga.  Back to work so I can get off and run errands before Yoga!!!!

Sunday, January 1, 2012

New Year New Page New Blog Post

I have started a new page on Facebook entitled Positive Living for Me.  This is part of my new quest to live positive and share with others.  I also have set fourth goals for the upcoming year and one of those is to blog at least once a week so this is post #1.  Woohoo!

I have been sicker than a dog the past few days so this will be a short one.  I have a lot of ideas but not much energy at this point.  I will start blogging and sharing things that will hopefully entertain you and maybe make you laugh or you will find you can relate to.  Happy New Year to all!!

Friday, October 7, 2011

Friday…how I LOVE thee!

It is finally Friday.  It was a super busy week yet seemed to go by all too slowly for me.  We are not heading out to Keith’s son’s game because he is not going as he has to go work at an out of town dialysis center that needs help.  I will be staying home and working if there is any extra and then running out to grab my hat and relaxing before my busy day tomorrow. 

Tomorrow is first Zumba Party for breast cancer awareness at 9:30 in the morning if I make it, lol.  Dylan’s soccer game is at 3:30 so mom and I are going to the first half and leaving straight from there for Taylor Swift.  We are worried with also Texas/OU being this weekend there may be a lot of traffic.  Dylan is mad at me but understands and I reminded him I never miss a game unless I have to which has only been for concerts that were already paid for.  His dad will be there and take him with him after the game.  Another of the soccer moms is taking her daughter to the concert so we will all be leaving about the same time.  Busy yet exciting day! 

Dylan will probably have a melt down later because I am not going to let him go to the football game tonight.  He went skating both  nights last weekend and he has been very disrespectful this week and I told him it needed to stop before privileges were given.  He is going to have to learn eventually but boy it will probably be heck for me this afternoon!  Lately  he gets so angry about everything.  We are going to eat a certain place he wants something else and goes on and on.  He wants the new iPod as we have Sprint and they are getting it.  Well he said he would even get the older one.  Well we only have one contract we can renew for discounted price and I was already planning to upgrade my iPod touch to a bigger size so I will be getting the new 4s for myself for that reason, it has a better camera, it has other features that appeal to me, and I have so many apps already having iPad and iPod that it just makes sense.  I love my EVO but it just makes more sense to do the phone instead of iPod and keep my Evo.  My EVO camera is not that great so I am anxious to have a better camera since I am such a picture taker.  Either way I have to save up for it anyway.  He will get my EVO and I told him at age almost 12 he should be happy and if he had such an issue I would happily just go shut his line off even though his phone is beneficial for me.  He has a sense of entitlement lately and it is driving me nuts.  Let’s pray that I make it through this afternoon with my sanity intact, lol. 

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Hump Day…woot woot…three days til Taylor Swift

Well last night I went to Zumba with my regular instructor who ROCKS.  It was super fun but still trying to build my stamina back up so I was pooped.  My soccer mom friend Rosa went with me and she asked if I was trying to kill her.  Not sure how I got blamed instead of the instructor Paula, lol.  I did tell her that when I first started it was tough but it works and it is fun.  Her son and daughter hung out with Dylan and used my computer and iPad.  I think Rudy now may love my iPad, lol. 

Dylan is always so hard to get up in the mornings and today was no different.  He is such a morning grumpy butt. 

My mom stopped by yesterday while in town at the eye doctor so it was nice to see her.  We talked about out plans for Saturday with the soccer game and Taylor Swift concert.  I cannot wait.  I know it will be awesome!  I saw this cute little black hat at Burlington the other day and actually out of everyone my Mema said it was cute.  It was only $10.  I think I am going to get it this afternoon because I want to wear it to the concert.  We got our “Why You Gotta Be So Mean” shirts that are a blackish gray so it would go well.  I like hats and I just want to do something different.  My mom says to me “well I’m sure not wearing a hat”.  I did not expect her to she is so silly.  In fact the hate will keep us wearing the same shirt but not quite twinkies, lol.  Well time to make sure little man is still moving like he should be and maybe have time to play a game real quick.  I may go to Yoga tonight it just depends on how work goes and how busy we are because I am MONEY HUNGRY! 

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Grumplestilskin

The above name refers to my almost 12-year-old son who is ever so hard to wake up.  It is like waking a grizzly bear and usually takes me 30-40 minutes to get him up.  He goes to bed early enough but sometimes has trouble getting to sleep so when you wake him it is heck.  His dad was always hard to wake up too.  It is just so not how I wanted to start my day but such is the life of a single mom of a grumpy preteen boy. 

I was up later than I had planned last night texting with my sweetheart.  He is usually in bed by 10 or earlier as he gets up so early for work but we just could not help ourselves last night we texted until a little after 11 and then it took me another hour to wind down.  We do not get to see each other so some days we text more than others but we always keep in touch throughout the day while he works and me too.  I think he is great and maybe he is THE ONE!  He is definitely the hardest working, most mature, and ready of any I have met and is very caring and sweet!  Time will tell!

This afternoon is soccer practice 5:30 to 6:30 with me working in the car until that ends and then off to Tuesday night Zumba with Paula B much to my son’s shagrin.  He has to wait ALL THAT TIME A WHOLE HOUR for me to do something for myself…He may DIE!  LOL!  No time to bring him home or I would.  He can work out, play on my computer or iPad.  I do not make him go into the daycare area as he is almost 12 the age you are able to sign them up and they let him work out and never say anything.  At this age on they are just so focused on only them and although he is proud of me for finding a good man and getting healthy and in shape he does not want to have to suffer because of any of it.  It must not interfere with HIS time, lol!  Oh well we are at a point of work where we are behind enough I can start early so I think I will.  I worked a little extra last night as well.  I am trying to save up money for Christmas, Dylan’s birthday (November 3), mom and my trip to Vegas, going to the State Fair and hoping to find some crafts for Christmas gifts, etc.  It will all be here before we know it!!!!!  I hope all my Spark Friends and other friends have a great day!!!!!

Monday, October 3, 2011

Heavy Mind Today

Well my mind is weighing heavy today.  I have so many things going on up there.  Today my little man is not feeling well but he is at school so I am of course worried about him but proud that he went since he often has issues with his anger and not wanting to go to school.  Today is two months since dad passed so that is on my mind as well. 

Today is also one month since Keith and I had our first official date.  Things are still good we just have not seen each other in a while because he was sick and then I told him to stay home this Saturday because he only got about 3 hours of sleep Friday night after going to his son’s game and then having to work like 12 hours Saturday.  He would have been way too tired!  I do not want him worn out.  He only has one more Saturday to work which will help us out a lot.  Mom and I are going to Taylor Swift this Saturday so he can rest then too.  We still talk constantly though so that is good.  He is busy with two jobs, single parenting, and school and I am busy with my two jobs, single parenting, and fitness so we both knew that in the beginning so we are making it work.  Dylan takes it as a bad sign but I explained to him that being in a mature adult relationship means caring about the other person and compromising to make it work.  Of course I miss him and he misses me but we want good quality time together not for him to drive an hour here to fall asleep lol! 

My leg is much better and I did one Zumba class last week and just stayed busy with work and stuff and did not make it to another one of those or a Yoga.  My goal this week is to make 2-3 classes.  I am going to Zumba Saturday morning because we are having a special one for Breast Cancer Awareness.  Going to be a busy day with that, soccer game, and then Taylor Swift!  I am motivated though.  I was going to use our game credits at the game store to get Your Shape Express for XBOX 360 but they did not have it and then come to find out one of Dylan’s friends jacked up the disk tray on his XBOX so gonna have to look into getting that fixed.  Always something!  I work hard and make extra money and things always pop up that take that savings away, lol!  Well I need to get to some other things now but here is to a productive Monday!  I usually do no classes or anything on Mondays and solely concentrate on work but last Monday we were not as busy so if I do not work over I may change that!  That may also depend on how my little man is feeling!  Happy Monday!  Remember to be positive and love yourself first above all else!!!!